Today’s faithful daily read is Psalm 51
‘For I know my transgressions, and my sin is ever before me. Against you, you only, have I sinned and done what is evil in your sight, so that you may be justified in your words and blameless in your judgment. Behold, I was brought forth in iniquity, and in sin did my mother conceive me’
‘Behold, you delight in truth in the inward being, and you teach me wisdom in the secret heart’
‘Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right* spirit within me’
‘The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise’
‘Restore to me the joy of your salvation, and uphold me with a willing spirit’
This is David. The king, Adulterer and murderer. This is the famous one with the heart after God. He has sinned dreadfully…but he doesn’t take it lightly. David doesn’t believe in ‘cheap grace’.
He knows the state of his heart, that it is inclined toward sin—the human condition he was born with—a heart that desires to make his own rules. Yet, he brings his heart before God in godly remorse. This is what we read about in 2 Cor the other day ‘sorrow that leads to repentance’.
David is not in self whipping mode or trying to pay off his sin with sacrifice or penance. He has simply awoken through the rebuke of Nathan the prophet. He is seeing his sin for what it is, ‘a pile of rotting rubbish’ in his heart. He bags up the rubbish, acknowledges it with godly sorrow and takes it out to the curb for the rubbish truck. He leaves it and walks back inside to the living room of grace.
This is how a heart after God lives—not in cheap grace, but deep grace.